Wednesday, July 18, 2007

Nothing New

I am watching The DaVinci Code right now. I read the book last year. I don't know why it bores me so much. I just am not interested in art, or religion.

Is it terrible to raise your children without religion? It's just not something I think about. Countless people have told me, since I got divorced, that I should attend church. I don't believe a belief in God will bring me what I need. I need to believe in myself.

We have a few books of Bible stories for kids, but I feel like a hypocrite because I don't know what I believe. I tell him that his great-grandparents are in heaven, not because that is what I truly believe (I don't know that it is), but because when I was a child the idea brought me comfort. I want them to believe in themselves, and to always learn. I have never believed I had to raise my children in a church, but sometimes I question myself. I want them to discover their own beliefs, but I wonder: is this a noble goal or just a cop-out, because I don't know what I believe?

1 comment:

diddlinaknits said...

yeah i know what you mean but i guess my big think is i don't understand why you should have to go to church to believe in God why can't you just believe it and show it in your own way and there are other things too but we havent dont any religious stuff with Aidan and someties i wonder what lanes family thinks cause alot of them are really religious-ah well im blabbing
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